After dinner today, it started to rain. No, it should be that it started to pour like no other! I stood at the end of the cafeteria looking out, wondering how was I to run back to the dorm. Then, I looked down and saw the drain. It was just a small and shallow drain and because the whole place (cafeteria and the buildings beside it) were connected yet at different levels, the drain had steps, like a staircase in the drain. The rain kept pouring down and the drain stated to fill up. Because of the gravitational pull, the water flowed downwards in one direction. There was a metal thingy across the drain for people to step on and it stopped the water on one end, and at the other, it was like a waterfall because it was slightly raised (urm, metal is quite thick, in case you didn't know). But even so, the water still continued to flow in one direction. It caused me then to think. What if the water wanted to flow the opposite way? Was it possible? Or is it dependent on the gravitational pull?

It caused me to think. Is life like that also? Are we really in charge of the decisions in our lives or is the path already set and a higher being just clicked the "Play" button and we react according to plan. Can we decide to do something else? If we really decide to react differently, how would I know that it is not part of the path set by the higher being? Is life and its choices really choices that we have the prerogative to decide or does that prerogative belong to a higher being who has charted how our life would be and how we would react and we just follow through? Is life really just like the flow of water that just follows the path that is set before it, not being able to move the other direction because of a greater force (gravity)?

Labels: philosophy

なぜ？なぜその寿命は非常に残酷ですが、何ですか？なぜそれはすべて私のおごりですな？Renee, Rita, Winnie, Rebecca, Jinnie. すべて私の愛する姉妹たちと私のように愛しています。

Renee. あなたがたくさんの私と近いの妹大切なあの人と私は本当に大切にされた。私が私の愛情を表現していないではありません。私はしなかったがまだ不十分だった。私は、あなたはいつも私は十分に行わなかった何を感じるだろうかに関係なく。 その理由を安全とは、わずかなヒントは、別の妹のニュースを私に近いと感じるのは、これを感じ始めると私は、それを得ることはできませんが嫌いでは、一人大切なあの人とされに近い私にお似合いです！ときに、私と泣いていた、私を中心にそれほどしかし、私は何もしていないが痛い。どれだけ私を傷つけるか分からない。私は他に何をするか分からない。たぶん私は十分な場合に適していなかった。多分あなた方の兄弟が必要です。 1つは、とあなただけを愛している。クリックすると問題がないが腹を立てることはありません。

Rita. 何か間違ってはいなかった。 ただ、私は他に何かできることをご存知ないことです。私は本当にあなたの愛とケアあなたのようにあなたに近いことを知ろうと努力する場合と同様私の本当の血を分けた姉妹があったが、どういうわけか私は、それがすべて無駄に感じています。多分、他の兄弟あなたの方が良い。誰がシェルとしてあなたは彼の多くの愛があなたから抜け出すことができます。私はそのような男を見つけてほしい。

Winnie. 何とか、私理由は分からないが、私は当たり前のように見える。まるで本当に私を必要はありません感じている。それはあなたのようには本当に宝物を私にどう感じている。にもかかわらず、そこには、まだ好きな私をしていますあなたのことを、私はやっているとされています。のように我々見知らぬ人です。ので、遠くに感じ、それが痛い。と自分自身のことをやっていますが私のようですので、あなたです。それぞれ独自のこと。これほど痛い。 多分場合、Renee ようにし、あなたを愛して弟の必要があるだけ。次に、それはたぶんもっと幸せになる。

Rebecca. 本当にありがとうございましたしました。あなたは私は非常に大切にされた。にもかかわらず、そんなに、それでも私たちkmrに開催さで私を傷つける。悲しいことに私は決してDSまたはもQYよりも良いことでした。あなたには、彼らは特別だった。それらを尊重し、とても彼らが好きではなく、あなたの兄弟。それは私、疑問を実際に本物の血を分けた兄弟のように私の治療または単にリップサービスではありませんした。何度も、あなたは私の欠点を見ると、いくつかの事実ではないが、そのことについては。かれらはすべて自分自身の兄は罪人である神のですが。どのように傷つけ知っているか？場合は、その両方との良い日を過すことがあります。

Jinnie. あなたの貴重された。 あなたは無実だったと1つの方法でもあなたは私の兄好きな尊敬を聞いて、私にはまだ、もう一度、ってだけでなく、時には。私は取るに足りないと取るに足りない感じている。好きな私には必要ありません。同様に私はそこだ。私はあなたのこと教えてうれしく思いますが、また、選択されます。それも非常に近くにするのは難しいです。

Haih... 一つのことどんな場合でも、これらすべてのポイントに：私の兄が失敗したとしている。私はどのようにすべてのための良い兄弟がいいのか分からない。私は、まだすべてが失敗したハードしてください。多分私はあなたの兄のことには適しています。 多分誰かがあなたの方法来るかもしれないあなたに、兄も良くなる。 一人本当には誰かがいつも望んでいた。しかし、私のかわいい貴重な姉妹が一つのこと知っている：あなたの兄は本当にしました。場合でも、そして私を忘れている場合でも私たちが一瞬一瞬を忘れると、全てのi質問を一つ覚えておいて：

Bryan Boo を一度、非常に多くの場合に追加しました。

I am a thinker. I am an observer. I think alot and try to tie reasons and explanations for things. I try to formulate logical and rational reasons and philosophies to understand and comprehend life, things that happens and whatever I observe.

There are so many things that I observe that amaze me like why is it that humans relate well to people of like character or personality yet fall in love (generally) with people of opposite character or personality? Another thing is theology. The more I try to think and try to understand or comprehend theology, the more questions formulate in my mind and I cannot formulate, nor can I find any answer that satisfies me, that quenches my thirst, and it frustrates me so much sometimes.

Yet at the same time, it is these things that I cannot comprehend that intrigues me and makes me want to understand even more. A split? A dilemma? Maybe. But I will continue to observe things in life, to think and attempt to understand and comprehend as much as I can, yet at the same time, admit of the divineness and sovereignty of God and that I can never fully comprehend Him. More than that, I acknowledge that He is sovereign and mighty and great that we cannot comprehend Him, as with what the Scripture say, yet still a personal and loving God. What a journey of the mind! Sounds fun!

Finally, I am fit and well to be able to blog again. There is so many things I wanted to blog about but it all already slipped my mind. Was so hard to sleep the times I was sick. Now only I know how active my mind is that in order to sleep, I had to think and think and think and exhaust my mind until I slept. Probably would have answered some theological mysteries if I could remember what I thought about. lol~

But just one thought: there is one general rule in life (though some genius people makes an exception, but that's only a minority): the rich get richer, and the poor either get poorer or remain as they are (what is the lowest point of poverty? Can anything be lower than poor?). See, businesses and investments need a main ingredient, money - which is something the rich have lots and the poor have little. Now, if the business or investment is a successful one, the rich get more money as returns from the business or investment but the poor get nothing as they couldn't afford to start investing in the first place! If the business fails, the rich don't lose much either. They still remain rich.

The law of money that I observe is such: the rich use it to get richer, the poor use it to get by the days. No wonder they say that life is never fair. Let me see if I can come up with some cool, super-impressive philosophical statement that might get me into the ranks of Aristotle and Plato as my closing:

Money is like water. Those who have lots of it waste it and yet still have lots of it. Those who have scarce, can only use it for daily use. That, also is hard to get by the days.

Labels: philosophy

I wanted to blog today but ended up feeling so unwell. Had a nap and woke up feeling groggy, weak, aching all over, feeling cold, occasional nausea, and the most surprising thing, I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE APPETITE TO TAKE SUPPER!! Woooow~ I guess blogging has to wait till tomorrow then. Stay tuned for that one... Take care everyone.... Before the virus causing my sickness hops to the net, travels through whatever signal or electric current (whatever) to you computer and hops to you. Then, "Tag, you're sick!"

Let's see... It has been like, what, a month since I disappeared from blogging. Let's see, this would be one of those rare posts where I blog about the things I have been doing.

I think I can sum up my holiday in one word: FOOD!! (though there are times of fellowship and fun, but majority of the time was eating, eating, and more eating) Let me give you a brief highlight on my food trip.

• Ate like crazy in PD. Love the curry bun there. RoCkZ!
• First meal in Singapore: 17-dishes meal. Crazy right?
• Had a Taiwanese Porridge buffet- the four of us (my cuz Nick, Eleen, Daniel and me) took a table. We had 2 tubs of porridge and many plates of the ingredients.
• Ate an International Buffet, I personally took 3 servings. (too bad it was lunch, or else I would have taken more)
• Went to Shogun for Key Magazine Appreciation Lunch. Again, it was lunch, and only managed to take 2 servings of 2 plates each time.
• Ate at Ritch for Imoto's birthday. Wow, I kept eating and eating. Sat at a table with Imoto and Er Mei. They both are small eaters (that's why I sat with them) and I just ate. LOL~
• Just came back from a high-class dim sum restaurant with 11 other friends. One of the BCM mates gave the treat. Guess how much we ate? RM 820!! Woooow~

Just an extra note: I watched Sherlock Holmes. ROCKZ!! Make me respect him SOOO much more.. I watched with my mouth open in awe. The movie portrayed the Sherlock story well, holding fast to the tradition of its author. The plot and storyline is really like how Doyle would have written it. Hats off to you! Even more hats off to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle for being able to write such masterpiece.

With that, sums up my blog entry. Be on a lookout for more as Bryan Boo is back in the game!